Troubles

 As I said in my first post this is new to me and I am addicted to facebook and get distracted to easily. By God's grace I am learning to manage my time wisely and to focus on what is of importance. It

Changes, changes, changes! Change never changes it is still the same change lol (lame joke) So since the last post a lot of changes has happened.

Last year, 2011, was definitely one of my most challenging years thus far. It was challenging, spiritually, physically, friendship wise, job wise, family wise, lets just say 2011 was not my year but a year of chaos for me. Only by the grace of God I was able to make it through to see 2012. I am not one to show my emotions or react to stress right away. I am an internalizer, meaning I internalize everything and keep it to myself while it eats at my core. With all that was going on in my life I neglected myself and and was focusing on helping friends, family and do my job. As I said I am an internalizer and because of not releasing  my stress or dealing with it, physiologically I was damaging myself. I had irritable bowl  problems, acne break outs out of this world. The acne breakouts were the worse of it. I had so many acene spots that my skin looked darker and burnt. As I look back at some of my pics of last year I am really disgusted with how I looked compared to now.

So anyway I had to leave Canada and return home to Nassau, Bahamas and I came home on dec 29 and have been here now for 9 months. Sigh.. 9 months of unemployment, 9months of reflection, 9 months of ups and downs. When I think about it 9 months represents being pregnant. I know no man at this time so I cam surely not physically pregnant lol. I was thinking that maybe I am pregnant with something in me that God wants me to give birth to soon. God bless us with visions, gifts, talents all for Hiss glory but because we are so consumed with life we get complacent and neglect what it is God has given us to do. I was like maybe I came back home for a reason or many reasons. Honestly I don' t know what it is..I thought I did...I mean Physically I am feeling better and looking better thank God for the 9 months of rest lol. I feel younger so who knows maybe I needed to return home to rejuvenate myself and to surely draw closer to God.

Pray for me...